HONEY LISTEN TO ME

Honey, you were on the phone talking to me last night, its been a long time and I have been waiting for you.

Honey, I’m sorry I didn’t expect this to happen, that the feeling of being in love with you will be substituted with pain and anguish.

Honey, please help me, I don’t know if I can still hold on to this.

Honey, why did you chose her over me? when all she can give you is stress, pressure and tension.

Honey, I can be quiet all time, but I can’t wait for four years for you to let go of her.

Honey, I love you, but I don’t really know if I still do.

-blue opals

A LETTER TO MY KING

To my dearest king,

We had started our relationship in a different way, I knew about you maybetrueornotflirt stories of you, and you knew my secrets. It’s not like we date every day to see each other rather we date because our time has allowed us to. You told me to bear with it, but honestly I just can’t, I can’t take this any longer. I need you, I don’t need you to pay for my depths, to buy me clothes, car, house, maybe not now, but I need you to be my man, my best friend, my comfort, I need your love. I’m sorry if I’m a loser, I don’t know what happened to us, I thought we’ll just be physically away from each other. I can’t be the person you want me to be, I can’t even ask you to be the person I want you to be. I can’t be there, and you know why, I need you to understand, not because I understand you but because you truly know the situation I am in right now.

I want to be honest, it’s painful, too painful that I can no longer bear it. It’s been a year that you have been doing this, and you didn’t have the very nice reason to cover things but I still gave you a chance. Now, you have a better reason, and it’s also a better reason for us to stop this. I love you so much, and like before I want you to be successful in all your plans as you always did. Thank you for the memories I love them all, I even wish to have more of it,

We both want to stay focus right? And I can’t stay focus because of this baggage. Can we do ourselves some favor? Let’s just let go of each other and stop expecting from each other? Sorry I can longer be the woman who cheers you up if ever I did.

Yours truly,

Loser queen

MISSING PIECE

Do you sometimes feel like a circle missing a piece?
The question had stopped me from reading the book entitled abundance of Katherines. I was pondering on the question.
I miss him more than he misses me even though I don’t tell him that much. Few days ago, even up to now, I was wondering what he was doing for weeks. I know he is busy, and I know that his priorities includes his career, his future business plans, his family and lastly, me. I wonder if I wasn’t his girl, I assume she will enjoy all the money he can give her and I wonder if she would feel the same as I do. He can give me the bed of roses, those without thorns, but I don’t need him that way, I want both of us to be in bed of roses even if those roses still have stems and thorns on them, I just want him back like he was before. He is the missing piece and I want him to complete the circle again.

DISCONNECTED

I have never been so desperate to see a person,
Never been so patient to wait,
Never been so hurt,
I don’t know where did I lost him,
When did I lost him,
How did I lost him,
And who is truly lost, was it me or him?
I thought my best was enough,
Unfortunately, it wasn’t,
For he needs more,
And gives less,
I don’t think if I can still give more,
For I know I am already tired,
Tired of chasing over people
Who never cares.