Trust, have you ever heard about it? Did you ever google it’s meaning? Did you tried to trust someone? Or have you ever tried trusting yourself? How come I never felt that you trusted me? Why did you have to create all those unknown account just to stalk, to know what I am up to? Why not just ask me instead? You know that I can tell you everything even the worst story you don’t want to hear just to let you know what’s happening with my life, but you never asked, instead you stalked, then later hurt me cause you thought I’m doing something out of my limits.
Last night I was scanning my memories, hoping to find something that can make me smile, unfortunately, it stopped with a memory that made me frown. I remember the day when we started communicating again, it’s been 4 years, I was surprise. I didn’t miss you but I was happy talking to you again, few days later we talked about our lives and the lives we had with our special someone. Then we ended up narrating the dramas we’ve encountered, and it was fine, I trusted you, and I trusted you that you are telling exactly what were happening to your life. Few months later, we fell in love with each other, I tried to adapt to your life, and we were happy even though sometimes I make mistakes and even start fights. But, there’s always that feeling that something is missing. When I’m out you never asked me where I was, whom I was with and I was happy because I thought you trusted me, but no.
We broke up because of other reasons yet we still communicated. I didn’t search for it, it just pop-out, I don’t know how, but u did it, saw your accounts, saw everything on how you look out for me, that’s why you never asked, that’s why you always had that something to say that was way opposite to what was happening, you made conclusions that I didn’t even know where you found the equations, and all of these are to me a question of “why didn’t you ever trust me?”