I AM A NURSE

While I was having my grocery later this afternoon I bumped into this friend of mine who is a trainee in a public hospital. We had this short talk about her experience. And I was shock with what she told me, “If given the chance to turn back time I won’t take up nursing and be a nurse, its stressful, you have to go with the doctor during rounds, do all the procedures. Yes, it’s the usual thing we do when we were still student nurses but the number of patients? And you have to break sterility rules, sorry, no gloves for sterile procedure, the first and last thing you would do is wash your hands properly to protect yourself and the patient”. At the back of my mind I thought of this “I never thought of that even if I am just a trainee, and I never want to think of it” I hope the day will come that public and private hospital will be in the same state, that a nurse will never sacrifice her health and as well will never sacrifice the patient’s chance to regain his health. And a nurse will forever say “I am a nurse, I’m proud of it, and I don’t regret it”.

YOU’LL GET USED TO IT

“You’ll get used to it” is not simply just accepting, but it requires understanding that situations has to change to make life better.

TO MY FIRST LOVE

I miss you my first love. You were the first guy who made me cry, it was a heavy, ugly one. I was begging you not to go, but you did not listened, you left me half dead. To be honest with you, I have not moved on, it’s just too difficult. Remember this song? You told me to play this one for you but I never did, i did not even tried.

I MISS YOU, GOODBYE

I see you in my dreams

I can picture you out in my thoughts

I can even remember how your eyes look every time our eyes meet

I really miss you so much but I can’t tell you

I am praying that you’ll come back to me

Let me know, let me understand what had just happened

I promise I will understand

then you are free to leave me again although it will hurt so much.

JUST FRIENDS

I am happy of what i have and on what I don’t even have. Yet, I am not contented, because I know i am happier if I have you in my life. I have to stick my foot on the ground for me not to walk towards you, this I will do until you’ll leave me. Despite the happiness that I feel whenever we are together I feel the fear, the fear of how would you feel or look at me if you’ll know about my past. I am too scared, that is why i chose this, being just friends with you.