Can you still remember when I was still a first year high school student? It was during that time I started dreaming to be a honor student, I didn’t made it during the first grading right? But I made sure that I’m going to make it on the next grading, and yes I did! You were the first to know about it, I even hugged you in front of my schoolmates when I saw my name on the list. The next years you were shocked because I even made it better, I even can’t believed I made it too, all those busy stuffs at school, an artist at the same time a leader of different groups. But I disappointed you when I was a graduating student, I fell in love with the wrong guy and that made me placed in a condition wherein my chance of being a honor student is crucial, good thing you were close to God and it did not happened, instead of being the salutatorian I was the first honorable mention next to it. Then I went to college, I was one of the students running for cum laude but again I failed you because of the same reason, I fell in love with the wrong the guy. Despite the mistakes I made in my life you hugged though not physically but emotionally felt with your loving arms, it made me strong. Because of that I made sure that the family you have been fighting for will remain intact all this time. I know mama I have been so cruel for the past few months, I never tried to talk to you because I don’t want you to feel how disappointed I am of myself. Now, papa and I have issues that I can’t even understand how it all started, he ended up blaming you, I love him mama but I hate it when he starts blaming you of the things you didn’t even did, even once. Now, I am tired, tired of helping you keep our family together, sorry mama, can we have a break of all of this things that had been happening for years in our family? Or is this one thing that will make our family stronger? If it is, then I’ll continue to help you yet give me some time to understand few things and take a rest as well. I am turning 23 by October and I realize that growing up is never easy when you start to see things in a different way. I love you mama, although I hate you sometimes but I love you most of the time even if I don’t show it.
Love,
Your first born