I know you’re busy, I am too. But I don’t understand how you are able to forget about me for a day or so. I find it annoying whenever you tell me you miss me when I cannot feel it. I know I don’t have the right to question your feelings and your responsibilities because we are not the same. In fact we are very different and I can’t find anything common between us, even the definition of love is different between us.
I tried and still trying to make things better between us but I just don’t find it worth of effort. I felt and always feel like I am a toy, if you’re bored you pick me up, play with me then when you have enough you just throw me away elsewhere, without placing me back where I was kept.
I still have 4 months to decide, I cannot leave you at this state, and I know you’re up to something big. And I will be the very first person to greet you with happiness of your success but when this thing happens and nothing has change then I have to do something to make myself happy.
I love you Angelo but I love myself more. Sorry for being selfish. How i wish i can tell you these.
Blessed in blue 